Ditch the resolutions, focus on yourself

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Hello 2020! A decade has went by, in a blink of an eye. 

I used to make New Year's resolutions that I knew I wouldn't keep and get stressed about them in the first month of the year. I made stupid resolutions that put focus on my weight and personal achievements. In this day and age, it seems like the skinner you are and what you achieve are the things that define you as a person. I didn't like that but I still did what I thought I had to do. Workout hard, diet restriction, stressing myself out and thinking that everything I did was self-love (hint: it wasn't. I was sick, tired and depressed)

This year I told myself to ditch those crazy resolutions and just focus on myself. That includes focusing more on self-love and as well as my own mental and physical wellness. 

2019 was a difficult year for both Basic Theory and myself. I refused to give up and teared myself up pretty badly. I was so stressed, things got so insane and I thought I was going to break down anytime. It was crazy and intense but what didn't kill me made me stronger, I guess. 

So I decided that resolutions are just going to add on to that stress that I am already facing and there are just so many things that are much more important than your resolutions. You can still be a better version of yourself without them. They aren't important at all. You are. 

This year, remember to give yourself a little more love and pay more attention to the little things around you. It really helps. I won't make empty promises because I don't know if 2020 is going to be better. Even if it doesn't, I believe you'll be better, you can be loved and you are staying strong for yourself.